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This is absolutely stupid and irresponsible.

Under The Weather

Still feeling under the weather. My appetite is increasing ever so slightly, however I feel ill every time I eat. Coughing here and there. Not very productive one. Trying to keep hydrated and best of all I'm not drinking, which would be the worst thing for my health right now.
Not much use of going online. Reading a good book and enjoying relaxing. For some reason, after sleeping all day, I find I feel much better much later in the evening, which is very welcome, indeed.

Managing to Manage

I managed about four days without a cocktail and I've managed to have a cocktail or two tonight. Didnt start drinking again because I physically need one. There really were no withdrawal symptoms. I'm just bored and looked forward to feeling a little numb and high. It does mean that I'm smoking like a chimney,something I wasn't doing when I wasn't drinking.

Anyway. This isn't meant to be a confession of sin or wrong doing. I have no regrets drinking again, but it does offer some questions of how to get out of this extreme isolation. However, it offers no solution.

Mr. Sandman Is arriving.

Can feel myself nodding off. Thank God. It's almost three!

Night One

One night, no booze And I have insomnia. Sitting with peppermint tea and having a smoke, because there is no way in hell I detoxing from them at the same time.

Took 3mg of Ativan to what seems like no avail right now. Taking a small amount of Nyquil. To hell with it.

On top of everything else, I coughing up shit, and my ankles and feet are in deep pain. A aching pain.
Boy. Am I bitching. And so publicly. Don't care. That's what the blog is partly for; a place to rant.

Provincetown clinic to offer evening urgent care

Great idea.  Now if they could only provide some mental health care.  They can never seem to keep a psychiatrist.  See Provincetown Banner

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Managed to move along in Final Fantasy X, winning the boss fight (Sin Spa) finally. It's taken me I don't know how many attempts, but finally got this game going.

It's been a whole day without smoking a cigarette. Well, I did find two butts with some cigarette left at the end. Not much but enough to give me a little rush. Disgusting to be smoking the end of a butt. Such is the nature of this nicotine addiction.

Off to bed after eating everything under the sun. A good nights rest and I'll be ready for another smoke-free day.

First morning…

First morning without cigarettes and the day is going to continue this way.  Enjoying my morning coffee and trying not to project.

Afraid to talk about not smoking and quitting because I’m afraid I’ll not keep it up and smoke eventually.  This is how it usually happens.  I’m able to stop for a couple days then pick up again.  Don’t want to dwell too much on not having that nicotine.  Must keep my mind busy and find alternate things to do other than sitting down smoking cancer stick after cancer stick.  Everything will be okay. 

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The last cancer stick.

Smoking my last cigarette, then it’s cold turkey.  Been smoking like a fiend just to finish the last of them.  I could have thrown what was left out last night.  But being the addict I am and the fear of quitting, (putting it off), I did not.

So here goes…

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Farrah Fawcett's TV Special

I feel bad for the woman. I'm a cancer survivor and wouldn't wish cancer on anyone and feel her pain. However I think her TV special becomes a little self-indulgent. I don't see the point in telling people you don't want pity when you are exposing yourself for the whole world to see. Very mixed feelings about this special.

iphone quit smoking application.

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Downloaded a iphone quit smoking app. Yet to use it.  Got good reviews.  Can’t think of the name right now, but will post it and my thoughts on it as soon as I start using it.  Right now I’m getting more coffee and having a smoke.

Independence Day

I know I’ve talked so much about quitting smoking and how much money it costs.  But after doing my monthly budget when I get on disability it is obvious that paying $230.00 a month on smokes is not going to do.  It would be foolish to spend food money and such on cancer sticks; no matter how much I like smoking and am hooked on them.

So.  July 4th, Independence Day is my quit date.  Figure it’s appropriate and not too soon so I will have time to prepare for the date.  Joining Quitnet will help.  Have use the online support before and found it very handy.

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After over three weeks of feeling ill I'm actually feeling better. My appetite is back and I've more energy to do things around the house. It was such a disappointment to come home from the hospital weeks ago with the intention of taking care of myself. Such as taking my medications on a regular basis and cleaning my house so it would feel like a comfortable home that it should.
However, I got so sick that these plans were put on hold. I'm happy that I can now slowly work on fulfilling my new goals.

Get off my lungs.

After having a cough for over two weeks, despite antibiotics and every over-counter medication and home remedy; I think its time to pack it in. The smokes have got to go. I just have to look at them for what they are. Poisonous and deadly to my body. Getting too old to be tempting fate and I really don't want to suffer more than the horrible coughing. I don't want emphysema or COPD or worse lung cancer. It's just not worth it. And then the expense. For something that makes me sick? Stupid.

The Inevitable.

Doing my best to avoid the temptation to go out and buy smokes. 

And it’s not easy. :(

Truly a remarkable man.

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Priest Who Aided Lepers to Become Saint    

VATICAN CITY (Feb. 21) - A 19th-century Belgian priest who ministered to leprosy patients in Hawaii will be declared a saint Oct. 11 at a Vatican ceremony presided over by Pope Benedict XVI.

 

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Killing one bird with too many stones.

Strange title I know.  What I’m trying to get at is it is not recommended to stop smoking and drinking at the same time one is starting new HIV meds and psych meds.  It does no good what’s so ever.  This last week and a half has been nothing but hell.  Physically and emotionally.  I’m still going through it.  Not drinking, because that will make matters worse.  But I am smoking again.  I don’t have to be told how bad they are for me.  Honestly it doesn’t seem to matter when I deal with all the shit that’s pumped into the body that make me feel ill.  So for now I’m going to continue smoking.  Not for my health.  For my sanity.