Now.  I've two cigarettes left and the logical thing to do would be to bundle up and go out into the freezing weather and buy more. I'm not going to.  As I'm not going to drink.  It's insane to go out in this cold for a filthy addiction.  There have been time I've gone without for a day or two due to not being able to afford them.  I have the money, but the point is, I can live without them for tonight.

Spending very little time online.  Haven't been on Facebook in about five days, and don't miss it.

Been reading a lot and enjoying that.

Under The Weather

Still feeling under the weather. My appetite is increasing ever so slightly, however I feel ill every time I eat. Coughing here and there. Not very productive one. Trying to keep hydrated and best of all I'm not drinking, which would be the worst thing for my health right now.
Not much use of going online. Reading a good book and enjoying relaxing. For some reason, after sleeping all day, I find I feel much better much later in the evening, which is very welcome, indeed.

Managing to Manage

I managed about four days without a cocktail and I've managed to have a cocktail or two tonight. Didnt start drinking again because I physically need one. There really were no withdrawal symptoms. I'm just bored and looked forward to feeling a little numb and high. It does mean that I'm smoking like a chimney,something I wasn't doing when I wasn't drinking.

Anyway. This isn't meant to be a confession of sin or wrong doing. I have no regrets drinking again, but it does offer some questions of how to get out of this extreme isolation. However, it offers no solution.

Mr. Sandman Is arriving.

Can feel myself nodding off. Thank God. It's almost three!

Night One

One night, no booze And I have insomnia. Sitting with peppermint tea and having a smoke, because there is no way in hell I detoxing from them at the same time.

Took 3mg of Ativan to what seems like no avail right now. Taking a small amount of Nyquil. To hell with it.

On top of everything else, I coughing up shit, and my ankles and feet are in deep pain. A aching pain.
Boy. Am I bitching. And so publicly. Don't care. That's what the blog is partly for; a place to rant.

Booze Took A Snooze

One habit down the toilet, now one more to go, in time.

Down The Drain

The cycle must be broken.

Sad to wait for monies.

It's sad to say that I've marked the hours to around 7 before the bank opens and I can cash those two checks. The sum of which comes to around $40.00, money I can damn well use until my UI checks come. Right now no
Milk or coffee or smokes and no decent food to speak of. Guess I tired of living this way over the years. Check to check. But I am grateful if not a little frustrated. And damn, I need a smoke!!

A review!

This is a slightly nasty review, but does make me feel good what with the mood about the place still burning me up.  Think they were a tad nasty, and the restaurant is one of the cleanest in town.  Just spiteful people.  If you’re not going to fill out your profile, but post nasty unsubstantiated reviews, then just stay off these sites like Trip Advisor.

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Should I be writing this?

I suppose it’s probably not a good idea to be bitching about one’s former place of work, especially using names.  But then, after some thought, I figure, who the hell cares.  I don’t.  That’s part of the problem at that restaurant.  Everyone’s bitching constantly about this person and that, yet no one speaks up.

I’ve often wondered too, what keeps the same people there year after year, when it’s obvious, myself included, the only good time we have is during our shift drink.  Which we pay for!

Nothing more than a dysfunctional family.

It’s obvious I got up this morning still reeling over the way I was treated by that C.  In a couple of days it will all be forgotten, though the desire to never say a word, go in, or work in that restaurant will never go away.  Those cows really do show their true colors. 

I can also imagine my co-workers putting there two cents in, and bitching about me.  They do it with everyone else.  Why not me.  So, as far as I’m concerned, anyone I worked with at the shitty V’s has no place in my life.

Yep.  Still feeling vindictive today.

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On Not Being Vindictive

After being talked down to by my boss last Sunday, and my requesting my last check be mailed, I finally got it today, Saturday. It was postmarked Friday! I know she was being a real bitch and to top things off I didn't get a bonus, guess because I didn't go in to clean. It's very difficult not to become vindictive. However, it's pointless, making me look like the loser, and it spends a lot of energy I really don't have to waste. Needless to saY I will not be going back to Vorelli's ever again. I'm sick and tired of the nastiness of the owner/manager. They are very angry resentful women. No ladies.
I went through this shit with them couple years ago when I was just released from hospital for mental health issues. Terry criticized my hair, et al. I came home sent them an email and said I would not be returning. Took a year off, and for some stupid reason went back this year. I think I've learned my lesson. I did enjoy working, if anything to service customers and have some laughs with my co-workers. Yet, all in all it's not worth it.
So. So long Vorelli's, keep up the good food, NOT, and continue to hold your employess by the tits and balls. Go to hell. Fuck off!

Damn cold.

So tired of coughing and feeling generally like crap. Indigestion and mental restlessness. Some lifestyle changes are in order.

Today I hate Provincetown

Happy Veteren's Day

Travelers disembark 'nightmare' cruise amid cheers - Yahoo! News

Seems people took it in stride.  Things happen.  Don’t think it was the cruise lines fault.

Some passengers carried food to others who used walkers and canes and couldn't climb up nine decks of stairs to reach the food lines, Alim said.

Travelers disembark 'nightmare' cruise amid cheers - Yahoo! News

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Windy and Cold In Provincetown

 

And it’s only November. Winter here we go!

 

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Amazon.com Pulls Pro-Pedophilia Book; "Pedophile's Guide" No Longer Available on Site, Kindle - Crimesider - CBS News

Amazon.com Pulls Pro-Pedophilia Book; "Pedophile's Guide" No Longer Available on Site, Kindle - Crimesider - CBS News

I should think so. Took them long enough. Should have never been for sale in the first place and the authorities need to keep a careful eye on the author.

Windy

Windy, but so cold in Provincetown. Late and cannot sleep. Restless and thinking too much.

Waking up with a terrible cough again, but will be a fool and buy more smokes. There are supposed to be graphic warning lables on packs come 2012. Will they deter? Who knows.
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Amazon.com title defending pedophilia sparks boycott call - CNN.com

Amazon.com title defending pedophilia sparks boycott call - CNN.com

I just can't imagine what Amazon was thinking. Or not thinking.

Midterm elections offer grim omens for Scott Brown’s future - Alexander Burns - POLITICO.com

Midterm elections offer grim omens for Scott Brown’s future - Alexander Burns - POLITICO.com

I can't believe voters in this state voted for him. Surely it wasn't his truck!

Keith Olbermann suspended by MSNBC

Keith Olbermann donated to three democrat's campaigns and was suspended by MSNBC for doing so. What a load of bull. He never mentioned this on air, and showed, and has never shown any feelings of favor for any candidate in the mid-term elections. Fox newscasters can do it. Coprorations can do it without naming themselves. MSNBC is being stupid. If for any other reason, their decision will really screw their ratings.